"Home again, home again..." a beautiful song from Michael Kiwanuka.
I love to be home: lock me up in my house and I will be happy, always knowing what to do.
But I don't like to be home because I'm ill and all I can do is spend my days in the couch :)
I've been struggling with my health since the end of november : a nasty virus that normally only stays for a day of seven felt at home with me for 5 weeks.
Most ennoying was that I could not go to my Poppyclasschildren because I felt ill. No balancing with my energy because of my fybromyalgy cause there wàs nothing to balance with...
At the end of the holidayvacation I finally regained MY 100% energy. I was completely ready to start 2014 in my class: I made stuff for the children, baked a epiphanycake for my collegues cause the first day was the 6th january, I baked a cake for my Poppyclasschildren and their parents,..
I had special sweets to give away to show how happy I was to be back again.
It all started well that 6th january until I felt suddely very sick at 11.30 in the morning in the kindergarden where I support a child with special needs.
I ended up in the emergency with blue lips, icecoldfingers and feet, shaking,.. and a heartbeat of 130 in rest...
To make a long story short... I'm knocked off my feet again...and home since then.
Latest information from the doctors is that everything is OK with my heart itself, but I have had a sudden collapse of my bloodpressure that day.
I still have a high bloodrythm probably caused by pain,being tired ( I relate all that to my fybromyalgy and bad nights) and an infection.
It seems that my my white bloodsoldiers were 3 times higher then normal that 6th january. Which infection I had ? Nobody knows.. another nasty bug... Makes me feel very humble again as a human against those tiny creatures !!
Together with my housedoctor we are figuring out what still causes the huge lack of energy : seems there are some problems with my thyroid gland also...
My biggest intention for 2014 was to take even more care of myself and my health ( after the shingles in september, the epicondilitis radialis ( problems with my elbow due to overburden) since october, the struggle with my fybromyalgy for 20 years..)...
I didn't know I would have to act so quickly !!!
Although I would love to go working again, I'm now convinced I must be patient and give my body a bit more time.
We only get one, you know... This is the body I have to cope with and I better take good care of it when I want to become 94 !!
I'm taking lots of rests, but if there is ANY energy I try to do something and if I can... I create :)
I have some projects from the good moments the past two months..
And there are some "houses" involved...
More about that in another blogpost hopefully this week !
In the meantime... you at least know WHY I'm quiet here...
greetings from Belgium